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Tuesday, March 11, 2008
Experiencing Deja Vu can be quite fuck up sometimes...The things that I thought it might only happen in dreams really happen to me in real life. I have always asked myself do we live in our own fate or our fate have already been decided. Do my existence matters to the people around me? When can I really achieve what I really want? My life is so wasted, I tried to change but eventually will end up being the same old way. I felt so stuck in my life. Nostalgic...I hate it. I am so tired of trying, but sub consciously I am trying hard to change my life. I am living as I should, I think. Haha
Who knows God might pity me and decide to improve my life :D
I sometimes still have flashbacks about 3 years ago, during April. It was hell, painful, worst then anything I had experienced. Deep down inside my heart the feeling is still there. It suck so much that I could hardly breathe whenever I think of it. Somehow I still couldn't believe it till today. Time flies, time and tide wait for no man. I want to change something. I want to know how. I am still trying.
PS : TM I will not fail you. Please watch over me as I pray for you.
Zendeil scribbled at 1:04 AM. + + +
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